“I don’t have the grades for that,” I remember thinking this and other self-deprecating thoughts when I was in my first year as a psychology student. “Only smart people can be therapists.” “No one would ever take me seriously.” There is no way I ever thought I would end up a counsellor. I dismissed the idea as ludicrous even though I was drawn to the idea. Instead I decided to cut out all the Help Wanted ads that I could find that interested me, jobs that I thought were just beyond what I thought I was qualified to do. I figured someone was bound to give me a chance eventually. And they did.
How I ended up exactly where I am is beyond me. I started as a waitress, then worked as a City Worker while I was in school and ended up here. There were twists along the way, personal and professional ones. I gave up on being a psychologist early on. The classes didn’t interest me. I finished my Psychology degree and with that I thought my dreams of therapy were done. Eventually I went on to be a Social Worker and found the profession that suits me like a pair of well worn jeans. I continued on to do my Master’s and eventually ended up exactly where I wanted to be in the first place.
A year ago I made a pretty big decision. I decided that it was time to take the leap into Private Practice as a therapist. I am still dumbfounded that it all worked out. I worked hard, tackled my insecurities and ignored my fear of failure. The last year has had its ups and downs. My profession of choice is very emotion-centered and there are consequences to that. I am proud of how I have handled myself.
I am grateful for every client that walks in my door. They offer their lives and most personal thoughts up for me to analyze, explore and challenge. They do this willingly. The preciousness of the role I have in their lives is not lost on me.
One of the best ways to battle insecurity and self doubt is to celebrate success and mark occasions of joy. Make a big deal of what you are doing right and focus less on what isn’t working. That is the problem with many Self Help books. They spend too much time telling you what is wrong with you. It is a waste of energy and money. Celebrate who you are and what you have accomplished. Change will come with acceptance, if it needs to come at all.
I tend to be a person that minimizes my own success and quietly celebrates my achievements. I was always taught not to brag. This blog and my practice have challenged me at every turn. After all what kind of business doesn’t advertise its services and what kind of therapist can’t follow her own advice?
So today I am choosing to celebrate and be proud. Krista Osborne Counselling Services started a year ago in August. In my wildest dreams I never would have guessed this is where I would end up. I’m fortunate to do what I love and that is amazing.
Do you celebrate the successes in your life? Do you need to make room in your life to celebrate and be proud of who you are? Here is my challenge to you: take a second to celebrate and be proud of yourself for something you’ve accomplished no matter how small. Hopefully you will be happy with the outcome.